I am really at a standstill in the crossroads of life.....
After having been thirty-four years of age for two weeks, not much has happened.
In fact, not much has been happening at all for the last year or so :)
It seems to be happening to everyone else: degrees, new homes, engagements, marriages, pregnancies.........and I'm very proud to say that I have finally gotten over it, that all of these high-powered, high-importance events haven't happened to me yet. Although that doesn't mean that I still don't wonder.
But I know I'm simply not ready. Not sure even at my age, that I truly have the maturity and patience needed for all of that.
However, I'm trying to figure out what I'm ready for, if I need to be ready for anything at all.
School....ehhhh......don't know if I really want to go back. Mainly, because I don't know what to go back for. I'm totally at a loss. Not particularly upset about it though.
A relationship? Only with someone special. I'm glad that I'm finally embracing my single status as well. A man doesn't and has never made me.
Sometimes I just sit in my little queendom, stare off into space, and truly wonder what's going to happen next.
Best of all, I trust in God. I trust that He will take me to where I need to be, when I need to get there.
