Good afternoon friends,
Hello there. I'm excited.
No, I didn't find a new man. Although that would be splendid as well, wouldn't it? I didn't hit the lottery, I didn't find a new job making tons more money, I didn't hit a lick at the new casinos.
I am simply excited for my future. What's going to happen, who's going to be in it.
Proverbs 24:14 Know that wisdom is such to your soul; if you find it, there will be a future, and your hope will not be cut off.
My faith has been really growing lately, but upon reading those verses above in red, my heart just beats with happiness. Maybe it is because I know what it's like at the bottom, in a pit of hopeless despair, just wishing for life to end somehow. Or, not necessarily wishing for life's end. Just wishing for nothing at all, because I was knocked down so many times, you just expect and hope for nothing.
What a blessing it is to have moved on from that point of depression and hopelessness.
I know it sounds vague: but I know there are such big and wonderful things in store for me and my future, sometimes it puts a lump in my throat.
Life is kind of boring for me now: seems like I wake up in the morning, get ready for work, come home from work, chill out a while, go to bed, and repeat the same scenario over the next day. But even in my world of repetitive monotony, I am feeling ever so thankful to have the life I have. I have gone from It is like the Lord is keeping me safe and sound in my own personalized cocoon until he decides to send my King my way.
I have had to cut two or three people out of my life, that have always been there. It may sound harsh or cruel, but good riddance to bad rubbish. In this new realm of mine, all negative people capable of bringing troubles my way, wishing for misfortunes to knock me to my knees, and wanting friendship based on lies and deceit, must be released into Nowheresville and forgotten.
Speaking of my future King-to-be, I am feeling better and better about that situation. I feel the Lord is holding Mr. King back from me, so as to improve him and what may be going on in his life. To make him a better, stronger man so that in the future, he'll be ready to claim Charmin and turn her into a family woman.
The whole moving out of town thing: I'm putting that on the back burner for now. As tired as I am of Cincinnati. I am stable and secure and my sixth sense tells me to just stay put for the moment. Put it in God's hands, whether I stay or leave. He knows when a good time for me to leave town is, if He feels I should leave town at all. I am totally and completely at His mercy and on His good graces. I am thinking hard about that "greener grass on the other side" statement. Many other cities in this wonderful land of ours seem appealing for obvious reasons, but what much would change in my life after relocating? Other than the scenery? I will leave it up to Him. :) And I am excited to see where He will place me geographically in the next months and years to come.
That said, I think I will "pimp out" my current humble abode instead of going on a frivolous trip for my 35th birthday. The original plan was Key West or some other tropical locale with my girls, but upon deeper thought, can simply be put on hold instead of being cancelled altogether. Perhaps New Orleans or something more financially feasible. I've always yearned for the whole creole/cajun scenery, the swamps, and perhaps some eye candy? I can't forget the rich history and stories galore. Bourbon Street, hurricanes, po'boys, crawfish, and plenty of pictures. That's possibly the scenario for my birthday, now only three months away.
I am employed at a job where everyone knows my name, where I am respected and loved.
I own a vehicle which is paid for and will never be repossessed.
I live in a cozy safe home, my queendom, my sanctuary, which I rule with love and happiness.
I am on the verge of my 35th birthday, and can proudly say I am single with such a bright future full of the goodness and blessings of GOD ahead of me. I wait happily and patiently.
I am very excited, indeed.
I have so much to be excited about. :)
If you are needing hope and excitement, go no further than here http://www.whatchristianswanttoknow.com/bible-verses-about-hope-20-uplifting-scripture-quotes/
which is the place I saw those other two uplifting bible verses.
Stay blessed.
(a pic of me at my job's wine-tasting fundraiser, Sample, Savor, and Support, looking pensive listening to the speakers).
Charmin
